SPECIAL MOMENTS; 2009

In 2009, there were a series of pivotal moments that help to sculpture my personality, shape my life and bring many valuable experiences along the way. Intensity at certain points, riding an emotional rollercoaster every now and then, but never a point where I reflected back and started regretting. I always believe, every lesson you encounter, you learn, you mature, you laugh at it and bid it goodbye with a smile.

Forgive and forget: I am a forgiving person, but not a forgetful person. I can only forget things when I am old, maybe in my 60s or when I start having senile dementia. I can never comprehend this statement, or engrave this statement in my life, in my personality.

It is not that I am a petty person, a magnamious person. But how could you ever forget all the encounters in life that make you laugh, sad, bittered, cried and caused impacts in your life. You may choose to forgive the person, love the person/thing back again, but how to fight back the memories off your mind when it caused happiness, smile. pressure and hurt in your life?

For example, I will always remembered the years when I felt mistreated, felt ostracised by my parents, but I forgave them, and loved them back and accepted for who they are.

Many may not been able to understand this meaning, but I guess, only people who have had been through what I had been through, would stand the same grounds as me. Thus, don't ever tell me, to forgive and forget, as simply, I can't.

This year may not be an unforgettable year, it is pretty much like any other years in my life, but one thing that makes it unique: it is an eventful year, or should I say, "was"?

#1

I lost some friends, some who are of importance to me, some who are not. It maybe open, or closed within me. Friends who left footprints in my life and left, leaving only hurtful trails behind them. I am still healing, because I admit, my heart is weak, I need alot of time to heal those emotional wounds, and recover from it entirely. Nonetheless, last words for those "friends" of mine, "Thank you for once being my friend. I appreciated it very much."

#2

I joined camps, being one of the faciliators, or Organising Committee, and indeed, it shaped my views on human working relationships. We rubbed against each other, spiked fire, backfired, learnt, moved on and made new friends. Knowing more friends from SP, mixing with them help me to discover who I am actually. Someone bitchy? Someone coward? Someone selfish? Someone friendly? Someone they can lean on? I found my answer, and I am truly happy.

#3

I moved out from my comfort zone, at Alain Figaret and embraced new opportunities, working at Satsuma Dining Bar. However, things weren't looking good, I can't seemed to fit myself into the environment, and found myself confused and perplexed. Action taken, and left the place. However, I still went back occasionally for its food and ambience and of course, the service providers, are one of the top notch in the F&B industry. I continued at Alain Figaret, and meanwhile another job oppotunity appeared and that was Relish, my current more permanent part time job. I fit myself into the environment fast and rapid, learning things and picked up skills along the way. Am pleased with how my semi-working life is, sometimes at Relish, sometimes at AF.

#4

By some chance, I grew a bond with Reb's clique and I seriously need to thank her for being such a sweetie, letting me meet the great peeps in her life. I never once felt weird or out of place with them, despite knowing them for less than 1 year. They're happy, and sincerely do. No backstabbing, no quarrells, only peace and harmony, accepting each other who they are and love them. I liked them, for their jokes, for their fun, for their openess, for their committment in this interrelating friendship, that helps to hold everyone of them in place, in contact.

#5

Batam school trip. It was hell of a fun with my classmates, with 03! Many issues happened, we blamed, we confronted, we accepted, we played like fools, we sang like idiots, we swam like as if we were in Olympics, we played in the pool oblivious that there are others around, we understand one another better, we ate like beggars, we laughed like crazy, we loved us, the school batam's trip. Every candid photo, we will be smiling, and feeling beneath those photos rushed back like 1000000000km in one second, and were flooded by all the foolish yet we can only smile and laugh and nothing else at our oursevles, oursevled in those photos, ourselves in Batam. I love DTRM04! I love my girls!

ZOO-ed with o4:

#6

I finally worked for one international company, Canon. It maybe one corporate event organised by Canon, but it brought alot of valuable and one-of-a-kind experience because we met big bosses from the other MNCs, big coporate business partners. What's more fun when you are working with your friends?

#7

SPA with my BFF, was one of a kind. The first, and will not be the last. Pampering ourselves were shiok! And, TAIWAN TRIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP~~~~~~~~~

#8

Worked hand in hand with SSYEAP, which really added a value-added experience and event that coloured and enlightened my hospitality tourism career, and also my resume. Benefited alot I should say, being a tour guide and learnt many many things that wer not taught in the lecture context.

First time being a tour guide for our module TTP @ Fort Canning Park:

#9

Sweyz and the guys, Sandy&Co. Our friendship is still counting on, and living strong.

#10

I experienced the death of my one of the few dearest ones in my life, my grandpa and Godpa, Uncle Raymond. Certainly am devastated by the big blow, swept me off the ground, but was brought back into place because I got to know certain stuffs. I won't disappoint them because I know they are looking after me, my family from another wonderful place, heaven.

#11

I had one of the best birthday celebrations, and I had to thank DTRM04 for it! WE had papers before that, and all I knew was that we will be heading off to Bugis for a mini celebration. But little did I know that they had a little surprise as well! It was pleasantly planned, and I was moved to the extreme! See my smile and laughters in those candid shots!

And WOW, 11 pivotal moments in 2009 helped me to shaped my life, in one way or another. I just wanna say 2009 had been one good year, be it the trashy and bitchy intense moments, or the happy and blissful encounters.

Time is clocking, clocking towards a brand new year, 2010. I spent a fab 3days with 4E1, some whom I had not met for 2 years, since the last BBQ session held in 2007. It was great and satisfying treat to catch up with old mates, favourite teachers and friends.

Will elaborate more when I get the pictures! ;)

How do you spend your last day in 2009? Pigging at home? Cooundown at Marina Bay or Sentosa? Or enjoy the cuddle-ness with your other half? I spent it with a bang although simple.

WELCOME TO A BRAND NEW YEAR, 2010!

prestigiousme♥

jingle wynter

I had one of the most awesomely coool Christmas celebrations this year! It's like, celebrating with the people I cared most, a lil' bit different from the past, because I also did celebrate it with my colleagues this year round!

It was awesome madness! Despite quarelling with my mum on Christmas morning, we patched it up and end it with a smile:)

Okay lar, not really patched it up, but she took the initiaitve to talk to me and pretend nothing had happened so I went along with it lor. However, I hope that my point was noted by her because I really do not wish to quarrell with her because of this matter again-.-

This is gonna be full of red and chritamsy feel post! Not really, but I tried my best to edit those pictures, oh should I say only 2 ? HAHAHAHA

23rd December`2009

I made plans for a shopping trip with Sandy and Sihui on 23rd. However, I was late, as usual ( and sometimes, I really have to thank my big lovely friends who really understand and tolerated me!), and met them at Taka @ a bloody time 5.30pm when I am supposed to meet them at 3pm-.- So SORRY GIRLS!

Nonetheless, we had fun choosing X'mas pressies for Wugui's Ah lao and also, erhem, X'mas gift for myself from Wugui. Okay lar, she got TAKA vouchers but hey, she eventually still used her money to pay for my HOT PINK CHIO-NESS WATER BOTTLE!

It's like, I picked it and she paid for it! How nice to have a small little card from her! Like literally small and simple! HAHAHA, but I do love it and appreciate that man! Love you wugui!!!!!!!

Was just thinking whether should we popped by Alain Figaret and said "HI" to our colleagues because it was quite concidence and convenient for the 3 of us to be present at TAKA, and suddenly Sandy was asking, " Wanna paid them a visit?" WOW, telepathy ar! Just like I didn't tell her cus I was smiling to myself! HAHAHAHA. Popped by and realised that there were a few customers so didn't interrupt them and try to help them pack the counter! With the 3 of us around, the whole posh and elegant boutique store turned into a fish market-.-

We were so noisy lar, like 三姑六婆 and to make the matter worse, our elegant manager, Nancy Goh, arrived too and she thought that we were customers and wanted to ignore us not when she saw her 3 young beautiful sales assistants waving at her~! (okay, I thick skinned but who cares! HAHAHA) Instantly, the whole boutique store became like an auction place and who to thought that our dear manager joined us in our conversation and didn't even care much about her customers! She just said," Hi, good evening!" and continued with our conversation! So nice to talk to her and catched up a bit since we didn't see her for quite some time. Time flies, and 1 1/2hours passed! Amazingly we talked and crapped like long!

And, she's going to Paris again this coming Chinese New Year and here comes my branded goods and of course, if possible, I want my Laduree' mackerons from Paris! I tell you, Bakerzin really no fight! Mackerons from Paris is the sex yo! Packaging also so sweeeeet and classss, not just one plastic bag with a Bakerzin logo-.- Theirs is like one box, packed with 8 mackerons, and have beautiful elegant lace mortifs on the box. I used that box as my piggybank for a year already and it still looks so good!

After making a scene at A.F , we headed to Far East and got myself 2 pairs of suede flats and boots. I like I like! My next aim is to go 313 @ Somerset, Forever21 3 storeys high leh, where got give chance one! Like ownage only! I want to grab some goodies from there! Who wanna accompany me? :)

Went to this Tom Tom's Coffee (which the logo seemed so alike to Starbucks Coffee-.-) and their coffee was so-so, or in fact, quite bland and below average. However, it's their new opening so they are open to suggestions and feedbacks so hope that they can be improved! Cus I pretty am fascinated by the round black thingy that helps to notify you that your drink is ready by the black thingy that kept vibrating!

There was also their house special, Cinammon whatever toasted bread and I kind of liked it, including Sandy and Wugui! So, I guessed their desserts are not bad! Service was pretty good too, they helped me with my whipped cream, with a SMILE:)

After which, byebye-ed to Sandy and both us made our way home by bus! :)

Pictures yo!

love' em!

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Christmas Eve, hmmmm, I shall talk about it when I got hold of the pictures! No point sharing when there's no pictures. It makes it seemed so empty-.-

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Christmas 25/12

MY CHRISTMAS IS FOREVER SPEND WITH MY BFF, and we kind of silently made a deal that there will be one day we won't celebrate together when either one of us gets our other half. AWWWWWW, so sweeeeeet!

 This is my 4th time spending with her? But this time round, we together, spent it with our Relish's colleagues. They're damn funny I tell you!

Just look at the photos! That stupid Anthony lar, when taking group photo, he said, "Why is that camera so slow ar?!", which made me laughed like shit! Those who used my camera before, should know that my camera had double flash so it's kinda long and hurting to the eyes. -.- Alright, digressed too much! Back to the topic.

Made plans to watch movie before we went to Relish, and hell with the cinema for all FULLY BOOKED status or LEFT FRONT ROW status. Turned off to the max, somemore the queue is madly LONG!!!!!!

Ditched that plan and went for a full meal at MOS BURGER as I didn't have any meal before that!

Went to Popular and bought some books! WOW, I read storybooks huh! LOL

Bus-ed 156 and reached Relish and we were greeted by warm welcomes from our manager and colleagues! Not forgetting the bottles of Rosemount on Ice, bottles of Jacob Creeks Merlot, champagnes and Asahi Draft beer! Free flow of wines and beer, and no limitations since they had many bottles and it's on company's expenses. How can I forget to mention about food?

Dnowyfish burger, Tangy Turkey burger which is a christmas burger and it's madly awesome! I liked the BBQ cranberry sauce, Aglio Oglio with Tiger Prawns, Homemade chips, special desserts for Christmas and not forgetting the must-have log cake! I didn't manage to take those food pictures cus I was too eggcited and dived right to the food and started munching right after I reached!

Christmas feast like siao, and I feasted like siao. Glasses of wines made me go GA-GA-WOO-LA-LA CAUGHT IN A BAD ROMANCE! I LOVE WINES!

Jokes aplenty, and what's with the SORRY SORRY BY SJ, ABRACADEBRA BY BEG, CLUBBING SONGS that were played thorughout the feast! It made us damn high lar!!!!!!! Angie's IPHONE ROCKS SIOL!

It's just so heartwarming to see everyone seated within one long wooden table, food placed on it, bottles of wines displayed on the table and our manager kept saying, " EAT SOMEMORE EAT SOMEMORE!". And, that's so unlikely of him because he so niao one! Everyone joked, everyone laughed, everyone ate, everyone drank, everyone were absolutely HAPPPPY!!!!

Group picture to stage the celebration at Relish and I don't know why, I love the ambience at relish! ♥

Photo failed, because of the white white thingy on the bottom of the photo:(

Another take,

And idiot Anthony made me laughed with his comments, darn that candid! SPOT HIM? THE BLACK ONE! HAHAHAH

Anthony and me! That idiot! hahahaha, but he's nice to his staff! No doubt about that! 

Shan, our supervisor, and an understanding lady! Whenever we have any problems or cannot attend work suddenly, its her we will report to:)

Siti, staff who knows it all! She's been with Relish since it's opening way back 2-3 years ago!

Angie, the Miss COOL, not because of her mohawk, but also because she has a restaurant in Sydney and she's a Head chef herself! COOL or what! But, she's sick of the kitchen so she chose to be at the floor! If one day I'm going to Sydney, sure go her restaurant to eat her signature main course, wasabi beef! ask her for discounts tooooooo! LOL

Javier, one of the few handsome staffs I knew! He's really not bad, too bad had gf alr-.- 

Manga( dunno how to spell his name), Head chef of Relish but he's very friendly and amiable despite his looks!

Shitz, I forgotten his name! :x but he certainly resemble like Snorlex in Pokemon dont you think so? HAHA, just a joke man!

Lastly, to end it off, my dearest BFF, Rebecca Leong! May our friendship last siol!

 you!

p/s: afte talking to hiongyong online, i also wanna make plans to go south korea after I graduated! WOOHOOOOOO~~~

prestigiousme♥  

same dot as in the past;

I love you, Mummy. I accepted for who you are long ago, I am not that primary 6 girl who was rebellious, did things to spite you to try to gain your attention, unable to forgive you because of your biasness, etc. I love you for who you are now, but can you accept me for who I am? You may said YES, but I seriously doubt so.

You casted shadows and hurt in my childhood years, which I doubt you ever knew about this. But, I forgave and tried loving you back and I successfully did, which was quite an accomplishment because I had lot of people helping me, May and my uncle and auntie. They're really my angels, no doubt about it!

However, after this early morning's big dispute, I start to ponder: do you understand me and accept me for who I am from the start?

I have been yearning freedom for years, and it is not 1 or 2 years, but 8 years in fact. Impressive number yeah?

Did you even bother to find out who I really was in the past, at this present moment?

Perhaps, you think of me now as a rebellious girl, a daughter that you cannot seemed to control, a daughter that seemed too complicated and problematic. But how much do you know me? 10%? 20%? or 0%?

I know you, mum. I took time and observed the way you worked, the way you interacted with your friends, the way you socialised with all those big bosses in your company for many years. From there, I sort of evaluated you. I am proud to have you as a mum, y'know?

Proudly to say that my mum's EQ and IQ are equivalently high, well-liked by her friends (many friends indeed), problem solver, listerner to many ( be it her business partners, bosses, colleagues or friends), always so bubbly and cheerful, so optimistic and always put her 100% if it is something that she enjoyed doing ( like her commitment in RC which she was actually awarded for her dedicated service for over 10 years last year), always forever so understanding to people's needs and wants.

I know so much about you, but how much do you know me? Can you list at least 5 characteristics that I have? Okay, maybe you can. Ill-displined, immatured, spendthrift, problem maker and sleepy-log-head... ,etc etc etc...

Do you know that I personally think, some of your positive personality traits are inherited by me?

I am like a subset of you, buy you can never be a subset of me because of no connection no common interests, never able to enter to other parts of my life, unless you use your heart and spend efforts to try to know me and understand me because you really want to, not feel obligated to do that.

In the past, I may hated you because you inflicted pain and  made my childhood years moody, how pathetic I am that I don't watch cartoons when I am young, I don't play barbie dolls, I don't talk to my siblings, I don't watch Disney, I don't know what is parental love, because all I could remember of was running away from home, stay as late as possible, not considering home as my home? I am only 9-10years old back then? How many 9-10years old did that when they were of that age? Minority, and I even knew how to skip school when I am 10. That left a vivid impression on me because I got caught and was disciplined by my school principal. What a drama when I am just 10 years old. Many would think that I am just like any other ordinary primary school girl, listen attentively in class, feared teachers calling parents for her misconduct, etc. HAHAHAHAHA, don't judge a book by its cover.

Everytime, when we quarelled, you always said this, " When you becomes a parent, a mother, you'll understand how I feel!", "You've gone too far, too ridiculous!",etc.

I agreed with you, I cannot fathom why you think and react this way because I am not of a mother yet, but what I simply want is for you to understand me. Once you understands me, you will know why I react this way, why I think this way. I am not immatured, I just want you to spend efforts on me.

Freedom, how many countless times have I ever quarelled with you over this topic?

I am not asking for overbearing requests, I am not saying that you do not need to care about me, but on special occasions, can't you just let me have my fun? I got my pride and ego, but you stamping over it with your remarks. You input curfews for me, by 12 midnight. I tried to reach home by that time, because I understand that you want to protect me. Even when I know I might be home over 12, I still msged you and informed you. I wouldn't have done that in the past, but I did because I changed for you, for a better daughter that you can proud of. 

STOP COMPARING ME WITH YOUR FRIENDS' SONS&DAUGHTERS, COUSINS, WHATEVER! I GOT SICK OF THAT LONG AGO! THEY ARE BLOODY DIFFERENT FROM ME, IF YOU CARE ABOUT THEM SO MUCH, WANTS ME TO BECOME LIKE THEM, ADOPT THEM, KICK ME OUT! *forget about reading this paragraph, it's venting my anger~*

I am your daughter, an unique one. Not a duplicate of somebody.

We have to compromise, but you never listened, you only how to say those few sentences and let your tears dropped. So, how to compromise? You forever think you are right, and I am always WRONG! DANG!

Again, your tears dropped and I can feel your heart pain this morning. I knew, I guiltied. But can you feel my heart is aching too?

For a simple reason, after quarelling and much counselling from the people around us, you still don't know what I want, who I really am. You want me to go to Uni, although I do not have the heart and passion to do it, I am considering it seriously and I think this may be one of my alternatives after graduation from polytechnic.

I listened to you, listened to your hopes and wants, I tried to give it to you.

But... It is fruitless.

After turning and running so many thousands and millions of miles, we are still back to the same starting line.

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You never understand me, do you?

..........And oh, Merry Christmas to y'all.

With love,

Your daughter.

Daphne's chalet/ 2012

2 STRAIGHT BBQs on last saturday and tuesday had became a killer for my throat. HOW AM I GOING TO ENJOY MY FEAST ON CHRISTMAS?! I'm damn pissed with my immune system, had fever yesterday thus not able to turn up for work:(

Just reached home not too long ago, I went to Daphne's chalet with Alvin, Shawn, WeiXian, Darrell, Kelvin & his gf and Amanda. Increase in weight surely pom pee pee! Next Wednesday another BBQ~ WAA, faints~ Growing fatter and fatter!

Nice barcardi with coke and orange juice which I actually much prefer the orange juice as mixer because barcardi with coke just taste... weird-.-

It was a hearty BBQ, with lots of erhem, as usual, entertainment from Alvin Kuek! WOW, now I know 3 Kuek/Quek friends! HAHAHAHAH

p/s: I got one muthafucking big pimple on my left cheek! So, no photos!!!!!!!!!!! Damn pissed off, always when that once in a month arrives, confirm pimples keep popping! Already so oily my face, still got pimples! G_G TTM! Darn my hormones and super oilllllllllllllly face!!

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Few days ago (or even weeks, I totally missed track of my time OMG!), Reb and I met up for Dinner at our workplace, Relish, which serves fantastic burgers and I love their milkshake! Chocolate milkshake that is so udder-ly delicious! Try their Rigatoni too, one of my best fav pasta!

But do remember to first make a reservation because sometimes, the crowd can be so scary, especially weekends~ Quite turned off if I need to work on weekends-.- Table turnover can be more than 3 times, and that is already alot okay! Do until you siao! @_@

Anyone who want to check out the place or make any reservations, please click here!

After our satisfying meal, we headed to Junction 8 and managed to catch the last movie slot for 2012, however, missed the first 5-8minutes of the show but it was fine, understandable still.

I'm just too emotional, I kept tearing when I saw how the world turned drastically and how helpless one can get. This movie really made me felt that the world is dying, when it is 2012. Okay, to be exact, the world is dying now, which people say maybe in the next 50 years, 100 years. Human is selfish, we think only of ourselves, but not for the nature who brings everything possible for us. I know I didn't do much to save the planet, but now, I will try.

Take lesser plastic bags, bring recycle bags or just put my stuffs into my bag without plastic bags, no littering on the floor, etc.

Every single little thing you do impact the environment. WHOOOO, I sound like a environmentalist or sthg? Of course not, I do not have the capability and ability to do that! Somehow, after watching 2012, it struck on me that I just need to do something.

That's one of the reasons why I kept rejecting Reb that I didn't want to watch 2012 because I know I will get too emotional and weep like a baby! As a result, my makeup all ruined and Rebecca kept laughing at me saying that I cried more than her! -.-"

Notice my eye makeup all smudged and "messy"! ARGH, still got some redness in my eyes to prove that I kept wepting throughout the movie. G_G

prestigiousme♥

christmas is round the corner! how are my dearies going to celebrate? ;)

If you guys have been following my blog dilligently, you will know that I finally met Scandal, Fathiah who had just finished her A's! It was a simple catch-up session, ate while talking.

And, I heard a shocking news from her. She, of all people, started working! She used to be like a "princess" and now she's working?! Wow wow wow... Not bad not bad, she can then see the ugly world! HAHAHA

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CHRISTMAS!

Short history: Christmas or Christmas Day is an annual Christian holiday commemorating the birth of Jesus of Nazareth. It is celebrated on December 25, but this date is not known to be Jesus' actual birthday, and may have initially been chosen to correspond with either the day exactly nine months after some early Christians believed Jesus had been conceived.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christmas

Jingle Bells~ Jingle Bells~ Jingle all the way~

Christmas is arriving soon, to be exact in 2 days time!

Aren't you guys excited?

Decided on how to spend this festive season with big "boomz"?

In this period of time, many will be fretting over what christmas gifts to buy, including poor ME! However, I know what I am going to buy for the pressie exchange gift for Sweyz! *Hint hint: Clean

Exchange-presents time again! NO MORE HELLO PANDA I SWEAR!!!!

prestigiousme♥